Excuse my french....

WHAT THE HELL.....
        What the hell is going on in my life right now? I dont know what is going on with this boy and it is totally getting to me.  And I am starting to take it personal. how do 2 people go from talking almost everyday to nothing at all? Umm Daniel did you forget that I gave you a Valentine's Day card? Did you forget that it was my birthday? Did you forget that it was Valentine's Day? It probably doesnt help that these all fell on the same day but, hello. I dont really give a SHIT if we are JUST Damn F word (FRIENDS). But even if that is just what we are, you could have at least told me happy birthday and thanks for the card. And its not like we werent texting that special day either. How damn hard is it to say those 7 SMALL WORDS?
        While talking with the girls they brought up a valid point. They think he is just scared and nervous. In the year that I have known him he hasnt had a serious girlfriend and I dont think he has ever had a SERIOUS GIRLFRIEND. So I am sure that this new experience is hard and he doesnt know what to do. I also know that we both want to take this thing slow and we have discussed this together but, if he takes any longer he is going to loose me.
        That is so hard to say but, that is becoming the truth. I guess I just need to talk to him and see where things are going. that is so nerve racking for me though. My life hasnt been the simplist life with men and i hate expressing how I feel. I dont think I have ever told this story before but, almost 4 years ago I found out somethings about my family that I wish had never happened. It has caused me to go through a major depression and I have to battle it everyday. Daniel is the first guy/ crush? that I have even been considering tell everything that has happened in my life. He makes me feel that comfortable. I just really want this thing to work between the 2 of us. I havent ever wanted something so bad before in my whole life.
        Couldnt you just see it Danika & Daniel /  Danny & Dani / Danny^2 {Danny Squared} / The Kennett's AAHHHH.... So cute.
        There is a song that perfectly says what I want to tell him. Dont you love how there is always a song for every boy I have like. HAHA. So it is call "Say you lilke me" by We The Kings. I love it. It is perfect and I wish I could just tell him this:

        He's the guy that no one ever knows. And I say hi, but he's too shy to say hello. He's just waiting for that one to take his hand and shake him up. I bet I could. I wish my heart was always on his mind. 'Cause he's on mine like all day, all the time. Forget me not, forget me now. I’ve come too far to turn around. I’m here tonight.

        'Cause I'm never going down,I'm never giving up. I'm never gonna leave, So put your hands up. If you like me, Then say you like me. I'm never going down, I'm never giving up. I'm never gonna leave, So put your hands up. If you like me, Then say you like me.

        He's the guy that no one ever knows. Works a double just to buy his clothes. Nicotine and faded dreams, Baby, just believe There's no one else like me.

        'Cause I'm never going down,I'm never giving up. I'm never gonna leave, So put your hands up. If you like me, Then say you like me. I'm never going down, I'm never giving up. I'm never gonna leave, So put your hands up. If you like me, Then say you like me.

        It's time to fall into my arms. 'Cause I've been waiting for too long. You're an angel, Grab your halo, And lets fly tonight.

        'Cause I'm never going down,I'm never giving up. I'm never gonna leave, So put your hands up. If you like me, Then say you like me. I'm never going down, I'm never giving up. I'm never gonna leave, So put your hands up. If you like me, Then say you like me.
        'Cause I'm never going down,I'm never giving up. I'm never gonna leave, So put your hands up. If you like me, Then say you like me. I'm never going down, I'm never giving up. I'm never gonna leave, So put your hands up. If you like me, Then say you like me.

        Just say you like me.
Yep yep thats it. Here goes nothing.

DATE

I was jsut told that Friday night was a DATE!!!!!!!!!!

Im So Confused...

I dont know what to call this thing that happened Friday night. Is it a date? Is it ust 2 friends hanging out? I really dont know. Everyone else thinks that it was a date, but I am ust not sure. And the most frustrating thing it I cannot even talk to my mom about this because she has already put in her 2 cents and guess what? They are not supportive and she told me that I should not go out with him again. For the pure fact that he did not come to the door to get me. Well no shit when you can see right into our house and he can see my parents standing there. He was nervous. I was way nervous, and I am fine with him not coming to the door. Now when we are officially dating he will be coming to get me at the door and opening doors for me because we can communicate with out it being weird. So yeah needless to say my mother will not know until that day that I have another date with him, When it happens.  Then I really want to do something for him for V Day but I dont know what?