I just dont know anymore

I dont know what to do? Neil is being so weird. I just wish he knew and we could be happy together. I guess I have to remember Brooke, Peyton, and Lucus. Peyton had to sit there and watch Brooke and Lucus date for a while and at the end she got the man. Is this just a test of my patients? I hope not. I just really want this guy.

Answer To My Prayer... I Hope.

Ok just so everyone knows I have been a complete slacker and not posted anything for awhile. Things are changing so fast that I would have to blog ever second of the day to keep everyone updated. For starters today there is this new song and I am totally in love with it. This song tells mine and Neil's story to a tee. It is perfect and this is where the story will end for today, so I want to start out with the lyrics and then I will fill you in.

Ok so the song is called "Just a Kiss" by Lady Antebellum. There is a message written in the lyrics so see if you can decode it.

lyiN’ hEre wIth you so cLose to me. iT’s Hard to fIght these feelings when It feelS So hard tO breathe. caught up in this MomEnT. caugHt up In your smile. i’ve Never opened up to anyone; so hard to hold back when i’m holdinG you in my arms. buT we don’t need to rush tHis, lets just tAke iT slow.

just a kIss on your lips in the moonligHt. just A touch of the fire burnin’ so bright. no i don’t wanna mess this thing up. no i don’t wanna push too far. just a shot in the dark that you just might be the one i’Ve beEn waiting for my Whole life. so bAby i’m alright with just a kiss goodnight.

i kNow That if wE’D give this a little Time, it’ll Only bring us closer to the love we wanna find. iT’s nEver feLt so reaL. no, it’s never felt so right.

just a kiss on Your lips in the moOnlight. jUst a touch oF the fire burnin’ sO bRight. no i don’t wAnna mess this thing up. no i don’t Wanna pusH too far. just a shot In the dark that you jus might be the one i’ve been waiting for my whoLe lifE. so bAby i’m alight with just a kiss goodNight.

no i Don’t wanna say goodnight. i know iT’s time to leave, but you’ll be in my dreams tonigHt, tonight, tonIght.

juSt a kIsS on your lips in The moonligHt. just a touch of thE fire burnin’ so Bright. no i don’t wanna mEsS This thing up. no i don’t wanna push too fAr. just a shot in the dark that You just might be the one i’ve been waiting for my whole life. so baby i’m alight with just a kiss goodnight.

ohhhh oh ohhh….

lets do this right with just a kiss goodnight. with a kiss goodnight. kiss goodnight.

Ok the story begins Friday, August 5th. Erin and Neil are going to the temple together. So Neil asks Erin if she would like to go to the temple with him and of course she says yes, well later that night I asked her how it went and she said that they did or were going to KISS. She never told me straight up if they did or not so it is just a little weird. So then I'm a little/ lot pissed off. So I was just like I'm not going to text him nothing I need to start realizing that this isn't going anywhere and he must like Erin or something. Well Saturday rolls around and I get this text asking me if I wanted to hang out with just him that night. Well DUH I'm going to hang out with this sexy guy. So I get to his house and we start unpacking his kitchen. OH P.S. he moved and the new place is fab. It was so cute we were trying to find his blender so we could make protein shakes. We find the blender and then we head off to Sam's Club to get the supplies.

While We were at Sam's club the only thing I could think about is how cute we were and this is what it would be like when we are married. AAHHHH!!!!!!!!! And I swear the lady at the check out thought we were married (well I had a ring on my finger.) So we get back to his house, yeah we never made shakes. We were just talking and having fun with each othere and it felt like we were "playing house" and like we were newly weds unpacking our first appartment. :)

As we are unpacking a box he looks at me and says "Danika, I don't like moving."

"Why, It is so fun."

"I don't know it just takes so long."

"Well I guess I never got to move when I was little so I don't mind it. And its a fresh start."

"Danika, you do know that I will have to move a lot with the military right?"

"Yeah"

Ok now here is the good part. Mr. Neil is always very grammatically correct so that is why it was kinda a freak out moment. I think he said WE, Because I didn't hear and I and he would NOT have used ME.

"Well I guess the only reason why WE would have to move is if I got a promotion."
AAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Umm.... we he just said we. We are moving together? Yay!!!! That was the first of the weird, cute, questionable questions. Then I got asked what kind of diamond I want and all of this stuff about him buying a ring and romantic stuff. It lasted all night. I am not going to complain but I just need to know if this is really going anywhere.

So to make a long story a little shorter. We went to Walmart and then we some how ended up at Erin's house. So we stayed there for a while and then as we were getting ready to leave he hugs Erin bye. OK well I may be totally off my rocker but if I kissed a boy and I liked it I don't care who is there I am going to kiss him when I say bye. There was nothing.

ON the way back to his house we were just talking and he looks at me and says "Danika you get everything that you want."

"No I don't"

"Name one thing that you don't get."

Thought that pops in my head... YOU! "I don't get relationships."

"What do you mean?"

"I have to work a ton harder than anyone else to make a relationship start or work."

Other things were said that we talked about and we had a good talk about relationships and how the couple has to be committed and that, that is what we both were looking for right now. We get back to his house and we HUG. YEAH. And as I am walking away. I asked him what I should do because I had told him that I wanted to tell someone how I felt.

"Pray about it. Go to the temple. You need to ask and have Heavenly Father answer your prayer."

Oh my gosh, that was the most romatic thing any guy has ever said to me. Lets just get mnarried now. So Sunday was fast sunday. Fasted and prayed, no answer. Monday- Answer. It is ok either way. It will all work out. Oh gosh could I not have gotten just a yes or no. Well then Monday I also find JUST A KISS. Well there is my answer agaion. Just tell him. This week was a busy week and I knew he was leaving for a family reunion in Oregon so I needed to do it before he left. So Thursday night I go over to say bye before he leaves and the twins are already there. Great I cant tell him now. Well it just happened that he needed a ride to meet his mom. So I gave him a ride and the twins met us there.

So I tell him the whole answer to the prayer story and then I tell him to youtube the song so he can hear it. Sitting there listening to the song and there is a pause and he turns to me and says "This is the cutest song ever!"

Yeah he likes it well I ran out of time so that is all he got to hear. So we meet up with his mom and before we got out of the car I asked him "Well know I have this but I have to tell the person who it is about. What should I do?"

"You know what is best."

AAAAAHHHHH...

We are saying goodbye and once again if he and Erin had kissed I think they would have done it again but no. It was this tiny little side hug the same one he gave Erica. And me I get this long fabulous full on hug. There has to be something there right?

Ok yeah funny thing that happened last sunday. We were at the park and I told Neil and erin not to get distracted and then Bryan piped in with yeah no kissing. In the most serious voice I have ever heard come out of Neils mouth. "Dont worry about it. It will never happen."
Well then I guess that can be a good answer. Sunday night I also got a double hug. So we hugged and I thought we were done because it was that long well apparently we werent he pulled me back in and hugged again. Oh I am totally falling for this boy.

Ok so the twins are leaving for the weekend and so that mean Neil and Danika TIME!!! And I am going to tell him the rest of the story. I hope it goes well.

So to figure out the message in the lyrics combine the capital letters and that is the message.