Happy 24th of July! NOT!!!

Ok so where to start. I had just started my period Sunday night, so I was not feeling good and I really just wanted to be lazy on Monday. But I knew that my parents would be home and want my stuff done well needless to say I didn't get my stuff done and got in big trouble.Oh well I don't want to talk about that. Done and over with I won't be lazy anymore. So to get into the meat of the story. Last night Neil had invited the 4 of us girls to go with him to liberty park to watch the fireworks. So it is like 7:30 and he text Erin and asks if we want treats. And of course we do so we tell him to meet us at the store and we will all get them together. Well when we get to the store he isn't there and then he text us and says that he is already back at his house. So we finish get our treats and then start heading to liberty park. We are in the car for like 5 minutes and he calls me. Danika its raining too bad so I'm not going. Me thinking that he is on his bike and doesn't want to ride in the rain. So we flip around and go to his house well he is getting out of the car and helping Brooke get stuff out of the car. Ok so we pull into the drive way and Neil looks at us and gives us this evil nasty look. So I call his phone and This girl answers the phone so I think that its Brooke. Well I ask I'm like can I talk to Neil please. And as I think I am waiting for him to get on the phone but no that girl hung up on me.
What a little @$#&! . So I got kinda pissed so we decided that we were going to leave since we weren't going to the fireworks anyway.
So the girls went to the mall for some retail therapy. AAAHHHH. Oh yeah Brett was not there so it was even better. So we are sitting at the mall and he text and asks were were are and I told him that he looked a little busy and pissed. No I not mad at you guys I am mad at Brooke. Well why is she even here? Hello.So we talk about it and then He said that he was doing homework and stuff. So I was like ok I get the clue you need Brooke time or something and you don't want to hang out with us or something. The 4 of us decide that we still want to watch fire works so we were just going to go up Backas and watch them in the car. So I text Neil and asked if he wanted to go up there it was closer and stuff. Well right after I send it He calls and says Brooke talked me into it we are going to the park you guys can come if you still want to. So We are like yeah we will meet you at your house so we can all leave at the same time and meet up.
So by this time I am not mad but just frustrated I didn't feel good. So we finally get there and we have to park on 1500 S and 300 E. Well Liberty Park is on 1000 S and 700 E. Yeah so we start walking well Erica and I have to pee... No Gas Stations, Stores anything for ever. So we are walking to the park and the fireworks start so we just decided taht we were going to stop and just watch them from the road. Well that doesnt work for Erica and I so. We start walking with Rachelle to find a bathroom. All of a sudden I feel like some one is creeping up behind me so i move over and stop. Well it is justy Neil coming with so he can make sure we are safe. AAAHHHH Heartmelter. How can I be mad now? No way. So we just keep walking and walking. Finally we get the the park will then we have to stand in line and wait. Then there is no tp. so stand in other line and wait more. All I am going to say is the fireworks were done before we were. Blah. So mean while while Erica and I are standing in line Rachelle decides to yell at Neil and give him the 3rd degree. So When we were done the girls just took off and left us by ourselves, and I asked him what she said? He said that she was just going off and was upset and that she wasnt happy with him. Thank goodness he just lets it roll off and not worry. They were all over reacting. Well I guess Rachelle had called Neils phone and Brooke answered and she was being a brat and so Rachelle was going to talk to her and start something with her too. Thank goodness they came to an agreement and stopped fighting. So we finally get back to the car and I am just ready to cry and want Neil to hold me. The 5 of us climb in Erins tinny car and Brooke leaves in hers. We talked eveything out and everyone was just having a bad day. And now everything is ok. Well between me, Erin, and Neil. I dont know about the other two.
After everyone left I called Neil and told him that I was sorry for the whole night and I was just not feeling good and ina bad mood. He was like its totally fine. YOu are ok it wasnt you it was Rachelle, Erica, and Brooke. Yay. He loves me. No he didnt say that but its ok. Everything is better after talking to him!

P.M.S.ing

Today I was totally on a pms rampage. It was not very pretty. And I will write about it tomorrow when I am not so tired, but I am so glad that I have such an amazing guy in my life that he is so understanding and caring. He made me feel so much better after talking to him. I love the way this man makes me feel. I think I am falling for this guy!!!

Jealous?

Ok so I guess it is about time for everyone to know the name of this guy. His name is Neil and he is so sweet. The perfect way to describe him is out going, fun, and charming. He has this little smile that is my weakness. He knows that if he is in trouble he can just flash that smile and get away with it. Ok to get to the story of the weekend. So Friday night Cara and I were going out to dinner and I was really excited, but I then learned that Neil didn't have any plans so I asked Cara if she would mind if he came to dinner so she could get to know him a little more. Cara is my best friend and always will be. Ok so of course I told you that my other friend likes Neil too. So I thought that we would go to dinner and then go to his house and watch a movie. And CUDDLE!!!!! So we go to dinner and it is fabulous. We had so much fun together and when it came to anything else it was nothing. So Saturday night that is what caused all of the problems for this weekend. So Neil took Ein fo a hour long bike ride. And then after that they went to he house and hung out. Well I fouond out that they were back and went over there so fast you would not even image. Yeah I have to say that I was way jealous. All I am going to say is that they were cuddling and making me way jealous. But then I have to remebe that I did the same thing to her the weekend before. I dont know what to do. All I know is that I like this boy a lot and there is nothing that could change it at this point.

Don't be mad at me

Ok so don't get mad at me because I say things that I want to, but you are too afraid to. Ok to give a little back story. If you didn't already know there is a new guy in the picture but the only problem is, is that one of my friends likes him too. But ok, so this guy and I always joke about sleeping in the same bed and making out and stuff. Like all of the time. For instance tonight, I told him to get over here right now because we needed to have a conversation. Well whenever I saw conversations he thinks kiss or make out. So he got this big huge sexy smile on his face and said ok. You want to really? Well duh yeah I really do but for the time being I really just want to really talk to you. So i just got a little side tracked. On Saturday night I really wanted to cuddle with him like we were Friday night. So I told him if he wanted a blanket we would have to share. Well apparently my friend didn't like that so she didn't talk to me for 5 days. Hello get a clue, you aren't the only one who likes him and I am not afraid to say what I want. I am just like you are going to have to get use to me acting the way I am because he is so freaking cute and adorable.
I mean am I wrong to think that there is something there between the two of us. You haven't ever seen us when we are alone. On a good night? So last night we all went and saw Harry potter part one and two. Well sexy man had class so he only came fir the new one. So when he gets there that thing happens that I said earlier and then we are trying to figure seating because I want to sit by him and so does my friend so I finally get it so that will happen because hello it's like going to be 3 am before we leave I want someone to sleep on. Well a lll of a sudden some chick sits down in his seat. Problem. So the whole night I had to watch my friend and him sit next to each other and get closer and closer. Well thank goodness they never kissed or held hands. Yeah jealous ? Ummm duh, heart broken. This guybis perfect for me he is so sweet and kind. I'm totally falling for this guy. All I can say is next time we have a conversation it better be a make out conversation because I don't know how much longer I can hold it in.

FRIENDS?

After you have treated me the way you have for the past week. I cannot believe that you have blown me off the way that you did tonight. When you asked if i was coming and I said no not until 10 ish did not mean that I didnt want to hang out with you. I swear the gym is a bigger priority than me. I guess what I am trying to say is that I miss you and I just always want to be around you. You are the person that I want to spend all day with because when you smile I smile. Good heavens you make me so happy, but you don't even know how much I need you right now in my life. I just really want to know are we only friends or are we something more. Do not think that you can cuddle with me all night. And when I say cuddle I mean laying on top of each other. So then its 2 AM and I have to go home and before we are even half way to my car, you pull me in for an amazing hug. (yes I know it was only a hug, but I still enjoyed it). But then everyday since you havent treated me the same. I love how you made me feel important that day and I miss that now. Blah..... Just give me some attention and get me the hell out of my house. You are my only way to get out and fell important. I love this new friendship or relationship. What ever it is.

Just a little behind on blogging

Ok so this may seem very soon to be writing this but there is a new guy in the picture. I know I posted 2 days ago that I was getting over a boy, but that happened 2 plus weeks ago. I am a busy person. Don't hate. Ok to start out I have liked this guy for a while but haven't started hanging out seriously until recently. 2 plus weeks ago? This new and wonderful guy treats me like I am important and most of the time I don't even have to text him first. AAAHHH yay... I didn't even know that still happened. So Sweet and condensed version. We have been hanging out everyday for the past week and it has just got better and better.
Everything started on the 4th of July and then got better after that. The only problem is one of my best friends likes him too. I feel like a bad friend after what happened last night. So he some how talked me and my 2 friends into going on a hike with him. Ok to get the true reality of this I HATE HATE HATE hiking. I would rather die than go hiking. Literally. So we go on this long ass hike and it starts getting dark. Well lets just say by time we were done it was pitch black dark. Joy... The hike was not too bad there was a great view of the valley and it was way worth it to spend time with him.
After the hike we decided to go get shakes and fries from Ice Burg. Yummy!!!!! We then headed off to his house to eat them and watch a movie. AAAHHHHHH best part of the story coming....
So we start the movie and he is sitting like a foot away from me and by time we were done with the movie that wasn't the case anymore. It only took about 20 minutes for him to realize that it was ok if we cuddled. So for a good 2 hours we were glued together. That sounds like a good word to use. Hello if some cute flirty guys wants to cuddle with me I am not going to past that up. So I had to leave early because of a lame curfew. So I asked this fine man to walk me out to my car because 1 it was 2 AM and 2 someone had gotten pulled over and were across the street. So of course he says yes.
We walk out side and before I can even get to the car he grabs me and pulls me in for a hug!!!. AAHHHHH!!!!!!.....
So I asked what are you doing tomorrow night?
Nothing
Do you want to watch another movie?
Yeah we could do that. But lets do it with less distractions though. Meaning hopefully no one else. Like my friends watching us cuddle. Especially when one likes him. If looks could kill I would be dead. I am sorry I didn't try and get his attention it was just there.
I am totally falling for this guy for real.

Crazy Life

Ok so you know how I told you that there was a guy in the picture. Yeah well forget that. He is so far gone you cant even see the dust he left behind. He is one of those guys that is a jerk face. I cannot believe it. Ok so just because a girl likes you and brings you something funny and leaves it on your car, causes you to stop talking to her. Well I am sorry. That is just a little crazy. Because even if i didnt like you we were still friends before any of this happened. It just doesnt make sense. Your friend has told me that you know i like you. Well did. But I thought you were suppose to be a gentle man. Wouldnt you be nice and just ask the dang girl out and see how it goes. Worst thing that could happen is you both realize that you arent ment to be together. And even then you were friends. HELLO - Friends. Friends hang out, talk, and do stuff with each other. So I guess looking back on this we really werent friends either. Thanks for leading me on and breaking my heart with out even knowing that you were doing anything with it. I guess all I really have to say is The story of us never started and never will.