I just want to CRY!!!

That is all i have to say today. I have a massive migraine and no meds to help. Why do I have to get these head aches it makes me so scared. Everytime I get one it takes me back to the hospital bed 5 years ago. I seriously thought I was going to die. And then of course that brings me back to Mothers day 3 years ago when I lost my grandmother. She was there every moment of me being in the hospital. I wish everything could go back to the way things were 6 years ago and make the choice to be healthy. like i said i just want ti cry...